‘I’d give up everything just to find you.’ – Amy Lee
Life can be messy. It can be complicated. Sometimes, I have no idea what is going on or what steps I am to take next. I have seen people become lost when they feel they know the way. I know that is what I was doing. But then I realized something.
The whole time I was lost, I was finding myself.
Last December, my world changed as I broke my leg in multiple places. That, along with the fact that I had to go in and have every single tooth (but one) extracted were two life-changing events for me. Both of those things also affected the fibro and I was spun for a loop. But I learned that the things that hurt us are often the things that make us the strongest.
When we are in the middle of a struggle, that is when we are learning all of our lessons. So, that is why I can say with confidence, that if you ‘break your leg’ today, and you are hurting, know that tomorrow, you will get up and walk again. It’s that simple. Life gives us challenges every day. We just have to rise to the occasion and meet them with gloves on.
Other lessons I have learned include the reasons for the site change. I decided quickly that while the other site served its purpose, it was not something I became excited about. And I felt it to be a bit chaotic and even somewhat kid-like. I felt I needed something more up my alley, more mature and something that represented who I am in the here and now. And so, my own domain was purchased. And here we are.
I have decided to be bold. And daring. To live life according to my rules. If it doesn’t make me smile, or if it doesn’t make sense, I am not going to do it. I am not going to offer long, drawn out explanations for my yes’ or my nos. I am not going to apologize for my life or the way I live my life because I have structured my life in a way that is pleasing to me and it took quite awhile to make it here. And I refuse to just ‘fit in’. I listen to different music. I have a different skip in my step.
After awhile of running away from myself, I also came to another conclusion. The saying is that if you were to find the right person to cause you to want to stop running, you would. Well, what if that person could be yourself? That is what I finally discovered. I traveled in search of who or what would possibly be good enough to cause me to stop looking for the answer, to stop trying to find that reason to quit. I came back home. And I found what I was looking for. I found myself.
And so here we are. A new domain. A new site. A new outlook. And lots of new awareness. It is with all of my heart, and all of my soul that I am here today. I am here to share my life with you. I am here to help you through your life. And I am here to help me through my life.
Thank you for being with me and for taking this step. You are in for a heck of a ride. So am I.